Everytime I try to leave I find I keep on stalling.
everything is changing when I turn around, hanging from the ceiling, I’m a mobile.
“Its a hopeless situation
And I’m starting to believe
That this hopeless situation
Is what Im trying to achieve
But I try to run on towards all or none.
Here’s the selfless confession
Leading me back to war
Can we help that our destinations
Are the ones we’ve been before?
I still try to run on towards all or none.
To myself I surrender
To the one Ill never please
But I still try to run on towards all or none”.
I was trying far too hard
To be what I thought I should be
I was playing wild cards
And seeing things that weren’t in front of me
Like a little tiger, play fighting
I was hurting myself again and again
Because I’m hopeless.
Dwayne — I wish I could just sleep until I was eighteen and skip all this crap. High school and everything. Just skip it.
Frank — Do you know who Marcel Proust is?
Dwayne — He’s the guy you teach.
Frank — Yeah. French writer. Total loser. Never had a real job. Unrequited love affairs. Gay. Spent 20 years writing a book almost no one reads. But he’s also probably the greatest writer since Shakespeare.
Anyway… he gets down to the end of his life, and he looks back and decides that all those years he suffered, those were the best years of his life, ‘cause they made him who he was. All those years he was happy? You know, total waste. Didn’t learn a thing.
So, if you sleep until you’re 18… Ah, think of the suffering you’re gonna miss! I mean, high school? High school! Those are your prime suffering years. You don’t get better suffering than that.
——
“Life is one fucking beauty contest after another. School, then college, then work… Fuck that. And fuck the Air Force Academy. If I want to fly, I’ll find a way to fly. You do what you love, and fuck the rest”
Incenso fosse música
isso de querer
ser exatamente aquilo
que a gente é
ainda vai
nos levar além
—-
P. Leminski
“When you fall down, there are two possible reactions. The most natural reaction is falling down and wanting to cry. And there’s this second reaction, which is falling down, wanting to cry, but then you see that everybody’s looking at you, so you smile.
…I like to write in that gap”.
Carla Bruni.
It was one of those days when it’s a minute away from snowing and there is this electricity in the air. You can almost hear it. And this bag was just dancing with me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. And that’s the day I knew there was this entire life behind things; and this incredibly… benevolent force that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid. Ever. Video’s a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember. I need to remember. Sometimes there’s so much beauty in the world I feel like I can’t take it — like my heart is just going to cave in.
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